The Bradley's

Today I write about something I don't know much about. Infertility...I obviously don't know anything about the struggle of not being able to have a child. Jayci is 4 years old and if you know our story then you know it was not hard to conceive her. Before I go into writing this post let me give a little history. I have been in nursing school for the last 2 and half years and finally graduated in May of this year (woo-hoo)! However, around September of last year I found myself in this sad place where I really wanted to have a baby. My heart just filled with the need to have a child. With one more year of school left Jay and I decided it would be best if we just waited until after I got out of school. It would just be better for so many reasons. Well back in April I got off birth control so I could start becoming "regular" again and we were just to use different means of birth control.

So a few weeks ago we were moving and all was packed and well lets just say the mood was right. We decided to go with the whatever happens was fine method. And have used that since then. Now remember I have been wanting a baby for almost a year now so secretly I have been hoping all a long that it has happened. Well yesterday I took a pregnancy test and it has not happened and I was so sad. My heart just broke.

All this brings me to the topic today. I have only had to deal with one negative pregnancy test. I cannot imagine these woman that have tried for months or even years at a time to become pregnant are going through. My heart really breaks for them because I was so disappointed with my one but I have a precious little girl and I believe it will happen again for us sooner or later.

I just write this post because I have a new found respect and sorrow for the women that will never know what it is like to have a baby or a child. My heart truly breaks for them.

I know it's kind of a random post but it was really on my heart today so thought I would just write it out.