Encouragement…

or should I say discouragement. I don’t really know at this point.

Anyway, I had my routine 31 week check up today. All is going great with baby K. Heart rate was in the 140’s. I am measuring at the right week. He is moving like CRAZY! Which is good since yesterday I was so busy and got a little nervous because I hadn’t felt him move. No worries, I did kick counts last night and today he is totally making up for it.

So on to the encouraging/discouraging parts. With our daughter I had a c-section. I went into labor on my own, went complete on my own, and then BAM my doctor said you are not going to be able to have her you need a c-section. I think he got impatient (because I know his reputation now) and didn’t want to wait.

Anyway, this go around I am attempting to VBAC which means vaginal birth after cesarean. Okay yea so one would this all would be easy with this plan. Well, know doctors don’t really love to do these. However, we have found a great OB that is willing. Oh but there is more…Not only are we doing a VBAC, I am attempting to do this whole thing all natural. No pain meds, no epidural, just some good old fashioned natural birthing. But there are road blocks with hospital policies and doctors and all the red tape. To be honest it all just SUCKS! It makes me want to throw my hands in the air and just say forget it I’ll do another c-section. Only this time it will be scheduled.

I am in no way throwing my hands in the air at this moment. I have a great support system…my husband, friends, some of my family, a doula (which if you don’t know what that is or don’t have one, research it, mine has been so fantastic). I just want it to be easier. I want to present my birth plan and my doctor just say okay sounds great but there will probably some editing and negotiating to be done. I also do not look forward to any arguments or fights that may come along while I labor if my doctor is not the one on call that day. I can see why people just give in and listen to whatever their physician tells them. But not me…no way that would be to easy. I am hard headed and like things to go my way and as long as me and baby are fine and doing good I see no reason that goal cannot be met. You know just my opinion.

I just have to add that I know things may not go “my way.” I know I am not in control of this process. I completely realize that God is in control so really it will go “His” way. Which is fine with me, I just don’t want it to be all the doctors decisions and what they say goes.

Anyway, that is my rant for the day. I had a wonderful shower yesterday that my sister threw me. I will post pictures on here eventually. My camera is still in the car and I think I am going to take a nap so I can work my last full week of work. Starting next week I will be part time. Woo-hoo! Hope you all have a fantastic week ahead of you!!!

~Kristen