That is how my stomach feels this evening. Not because I have a stomach bug or something. This is more like nervous knots. See tomorrow evening I will be returning to work after being off 8 weeks with my sweet little baby. I have enjoyed this time so much. I have enjoyed being able to spend time with my husband, my 5-year-old, and of course the baby. I know I only work 2 nights a week, Saturday and Sunday nights. It’s not that much and I love that I am able to have these hours. I just am nervous about leaving. My husband will be taking care of both kids. Well actually Jayci is out of town this weekend with some of my family so it will just be Jay and Korbyn tomorrow night. I know he will do a good job. He is such a good dad. I just am worrying for nothing.
The second part of my knots are coming from going back to work and being able to remember how to do my job. See I am a pediatric nurse and even if I am lacking in confidence I better find it by the time I hit that door tomorrow. Parents depend on me to take care of their child and be able to know what I am doing. I know I will get back into the swing of things but I at least hope my sweet co-workers will go easy on me and answer all my questions. I almost feel like I did the first day I came off of orientation and took patients for the first time on my own.
Well that is my ramble. I just wanted to get it out and sharing on my blog helps me feel a little better. I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I am going to soak up as much time with Korbyn as I can and try not to spend all my time crying. Because trust me that is pretty much all I have wanted to do today.
~Kristen
5 comments:
*Hugs* I know exactly how you feel. I have to make some tough decisions about my baby to go to the nursing program which ties my stomach in knots thinking about remembering everything too. Good luck, I believe you'll do just great!!
I remember nursing school too. It was hard leaving Jayci. Lots of tears were shed in those 2 years (the 2 years of prereqs I didn't really have to study much). I alway felt like I never spent time with her. Good thing is that she was young and she only remembers the good times where wer spending time together. . That's the good think about kids.
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I remember going back to finish of the school year right after my son was born. I had knots too.
I know it has to be hard to return, but can I take the liberty to say that there are SO many of us who appreciate what you are doing! My kids were both NICU babies and I don't know what I would have done if it hadn't have been for the support of their nurses, especially Brayden's. We still keep in touch with his primary nurses from Children's. So, thank you for taking care of those sweet children!!!
Stopping by from Jenna's Journey.... I hope your first evening back went ok! I'm a working mom too and know how hard it is! Your children are beautiful!!
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